in the deep

twilight. we've all heard about it, seen the volumes in every book store, deparment store, splattered around walmart, seen the previews for the movies.

i gave in, after defiantly rejecting the entire concept, and read the books, and watched the movie. (all at no cost to me, thank you internet).

now you're waiting for me to day that i was wrong, and they're the best novels ever written, so forth and so on, right?

wrong.

(i'm not going to apologize for my opinions, just apologize that they don't coincide with yours.)

at it's very basic, the story of love, is okay. the novel are a good way to pass the time, and what i like to call "fluff." doesn't make you think too much.

on the other hand, i for one had an incredibly difficult time keeping up with what was going on. not because my reading skills are subpar (they're not), but because ms. meyer's writing is. yes she is young, but that is what editors are for. the syntax, the diction (do you sleep with your thesaurus?), structure, everything literary was atrocious.

as for the characters. usually when i read a book, i do not have a hard time imagining myself in the narrator's shoes, because they are relatable. with this, all i found was that bella was insufferable. whining constantly, no self-confidence, every other character treating her as though she is an infant. i may be an adult now, but i doubt when i was the age these books are targeted for that i would have related to her.

while everyone finds edward to be the bee's knees, and want to be his girlfriend (or boyfriend, no jugdments here, kids), i couldn't agree less. he is arrogant, controlling, distant, and most of all selfish. who would want that in a romantic partner?

so all in all, not one of the best series i've ever read. i felt no emotion for the characters, i didn't hope, cry, laugh, or fear.

some tips for ms. meyer? work on your writing (go back to high school english if need be for your syntax and diction), don't rely on your thesaurus (i've seen your interviews, if you don't talk the way you write, don't write that way), and try to make your characters relatable, not annoying.

the seer's tower

SIGN THE PETITION.

ludicrous.

in addition to that lovely piece of news, i'm also incredibly pissed off about something completely different.

*grumble, rant, grumble*

a call to apathy

it seems as though it is all crashing down around me. i don't know how we're going to make it out of this one.

the recession just kicked our ass today. lost half our monthly income.. we were barely making ends meet as it were.

...*sigh*

bend and not break

in the post titled "mannequin republic," i wrote that i live more in my mind than i do actually living.

couldn't be more true on tuesday, while i was at work.

all during the first half of my shift, i kept envisioning my boyfriend cheating on me with the one person i truly despise, loathe,(an ex-girlfriend of his) and catching them when i went home on my lunch break to pick him up for work.

it didn't happen, obviously. he loves me. has an odd way of showing it sometimes, but it's true.

but even that couldn't put me at ease. the boyfriend and i work at the same place, but on tuesday, we were on opposite sides of the store.

lo and effing behold who should walk by me, but the horrible person herself. now, my minds starts racing (did she go through his line, did she talk to him, did she flirt with him, did he flirt with her?!), my hands are shaking, and a manager helped to calm me down.

but i have nothing to worry about. i think. i hope.

.......

on the other hand.. money is nice to have. bought a bigger bed for the boyfriend and i, getting juniper (my girl kitty) spayed next week, and yesterday i bought this and this, both in cupcakes green. yeah, jumped on the bandwagon, but they're cute, and the first one is really handy to have... holds everything.

work is work, my hours are increasing. good for money, bad for my spirit. trying to arrange a trip to my parents, soon. next couple of months.

colour me...

stumble upon is my favourite thing right now.

i'm finding inspiration in so many things, but very little means of expounding on that.

this is wonderful, and simple, and reminds me of a dear friend from high school.

when i've been inspired like i just have, i begin to wish for so many things. for things to be different, to live in an area which has more to offer, to have a dslr.

simplicity. the joy of being able to photograph well, and have the camera to do it.